Where'd All the Good People Go?
In keeping true to myself, in typical "Ashley" fashion, I turn to music. I can't count how many months I went in silence... No tv, no music, nothing... There was too much chaos going on aroun me and all I really wanted was some peace. I think to stay true to myself and find the joy that I used to have, I need to find peace by using the things to deal with my emotions that I did before: music, exercise, sunshine, family, friends... (True, close friends)
This was a favorite of mine in the summer of 2004. I listened to Jack Johnson on repeat. People listen to music, but not the lyrics I found... I always listened to it all. The emotion in the music itself, and the meaning behind the lyrics. Jack Johnson, like others, is very insightful. This is one of my favorites to this day.... I also have two other songs which I think are amazing for multiple reasons.
Where'd all the good people go? That's the same question I keep asking myself... The same people who complained about corruption, or how horrible certain people were, have themselves turned out to be very cruel people. At what point do people step back and ask themselves if on their conquest to destroy evil, if they themselves acted in that way? Why do so many people love to hate me? Maybe it's because they don't understand me. People don't like what they can't understand. They can't understand why I didn't just turn and sue the person they thought I would. Perhaps they underestimated me as a person? Perhaps they underestimated the value of communication? I didn't see an evil person... nor had I lived in the Mid-Ohio Valley since 2002... so all I knew was what I saw.
The "other" side found it easier to think that a girl became jealous and vindictive and set someone up for failure. Instead of looking at the situation for the crazy thing that it actually was, they turned their back on someone they had worked side by side with, been friends with... assuming the worse in me, because it was easier to assume that than to assume a group of people would be so cruel as to want to destroy a man's end of his career...and myself, I would become a casualty of the political war.
Turning your heads to what is going on around you is not any way to live life. You hear of kids being bullied, or the mean things that go on in young children, and you hear people complain... yet, they don't realize that kids learn by example. Is this the example you want to set for your children? I always stood up for people and what I thought was right. In this situation it made me an easy target to be labeled "Crazy". When in fact, I just am not evil. I lack that part of me that wants to hurt someone, anyone, on purpose. Good people don't always win it appears... but I believe in goodness because that is what my family is, and how I was raised to be; and NOTHING, and NO SITUATION, will change that. The biggest lesson I've learned from this is to not assume that , in my sister Lindsey's words, "Not everyone shits rainbows." Lol... she says I suffer from what my Mother did, which was seeing too much good in people. Assuming that everyone has a genuine heart and genuine intentions. Hard way to learn the lesson... but lesson learned.
Ask yourself... would you consider yourself a good person? No matter where you lie , on the left side, right side, middle, or outside of this mess... Perhaps the issue isn't where you land politically, or whose side you are on. Perhaps the issue is, are you any better than the problem you strive to fix?
By the way, It's yard sale day again... Day 2. I'm sleepy! I wonder if I could just fall asleep behind my computer screen? lol Sundays go slow, Monday brings a new week and more of my girls smiles. They keep my spark alive.
Jack Johnson - "Good People"
"Well, you win:
It's your show now,
So what's it gonna be?
Cause people
Will tune in;
How many train wrecks
Do we need to see?
Before
We lose touch, oh
And we thought this was low...
Well, it's bad,
Getting worse, oh
Where'd all the good people go?
I've been changing channels,
I don't see them
On the T.V. shows
Where'd all the good people go?
We've got heaps and heaps
Of what we sow
They got this,
And that,
With a rattle-a-tat
Testing - 1, 2
Man, whatcha gonna do?
Bad news, Misused -
Got too much to lose
Gimmie some truth now
Who's side are we on?
Whatever you say -
Turn on the boob tube,
I'm in the mood to obey
So lead me astray
And by the way, now -
Where'd all the good people go?
I've been changing channels
I don't see them
On the T.V. shows
Where'd all the good people go?
We've got heaps and heaps
Of what we sow
Sittin 'round,
Feelin far away, yeah
So far away,
But I can feel the debris
Can ya feel it?
You interrupt me
From a friendly
Conversation
To tell me how great
It's all gonna be
You might
Notice
Some hesitation
'Cause
What's important to you
Is not important to me
Mm mm mm mm...
Way down
By the edge
Of your whole reason
Well, it's beginning to show
And all I really wanna know is
Where'd all the good people go?
I've been changing channels
I don't see them
On the T.V. show
Where'd all the good people go?
We got heaps and heaps
Of what we sow
(Where'd all the good people go?)
They got this,
And that,
With a rattle-a-tat
Testing -
1, 2
Man whatcha gonna do
Bad news
Misused
Gimmie some truth
You got too much to lose
(Where'd all the good people go?)
Who's side are we on?
Every day
Every way
Okay -
Whatever you say
Run the resolute,
But in the mood
To obey
Station to station
Desensitizing
The nation
(Where'd all the good people go?)
Goin, goin, gone..."
Rhodes & Birdy - "Let It All Go"
"I been sleepless at night, cause I don't know how I feel
I been waiting on you, just to say something real
There's a light on the road and I think you know
Morning has come and I have to go
I don't know why, I don't know why
We need to break so hard
I don't know why we break so hard
But if we're strong enough to let it in
We're strong enough to let it go oh oh
If I look back to the start, now I know
I see everything true
There's still a fire in my heart, my darling
But I'm not burning for you
We've started it wrong and I think you know
We waited too long, now I have to go
I don't know why, I don't know why
We need to break so hard
I don't know why we break so hard
But if we're strong enough to let it in
We're strong enough to let it go oh oh
Let it all go, let it all go, let it all out now
Let it all go, let it all go, let it all out now
Who says, who says
Who says, who says
Who says truth is, beauty after all
And who says love should break us when we fall
But if we're strong enough to let it in
We're strong enough to let it go oh oh
Let it all go, let it all go, let it all out now
Let it all go, let it all go, let it all out now
We're strong enough to let it go oh oh"
Birdy "Words As Weapons"
"I feel your knife as it goes right in
Cut to my core but I'm not bleeding
All that you say trying to make me small
Well, the bigger you get the harder you fall
You use your words as a weapon dear
But your blades don't hurt when you have no fear
You think that you're deep under my skin
You're trying to keep me suffering
If you use your words as a weapon
Then as a weapon, I'll shed no tears
You have my heart but I lock it up
This burning flame has been burnt enough
My window's cracked they can be replaced
But your arm will tire throwing stones my way
You use your words as a weapon dear
But your blades don't hurt when you have no fear
You think that you're deep under my skin
You're trying to keep me suffering
If you use your words as a weapon
Then as a weapon, I'll shed no tears
I feel your knife as it goes right in
You use your words as a weapon dear
But your blades don't hurt when you have no fear
You think that you're deep under my skin
You're trying to keep me suffering
If you use your words as a weapon
Then as a weapon, I'll shed no tears I'll shed no tears"