And I'll Make Sure To Keep My Distance
I got to see my best friend on Sunday.... she gives me strength. I wish I had more time with her. I was so happy to see her though. I'll try and add pictures later... I'm sleepy.
I'm ready to go on. This is never-ending. I need to rebuild a life for my kids.
I hurt all the time without them. I wonder at times if this pain I've felt for so long will ever go away. I don't remember what normal life felt like... let alone, did I ever have a normal life.
Peace. Family. An un-broken heart. That's all I want.
WV Norml had a good event that was co-sponsored with WV CAG at the WV International Film Festival. It was a screening of "The Culture High", an amazing documentary. The panel was made up of Cheryl Shuman, Mike Mannypenny, and Jesse Johnson. It was a great panel. Good people. And let me tell you that Cheryl Shuman was so gracious to have came and done this for us. She is one of the best people i have ever met. www.cherylshuman.com
Tonight's musical insight... a line from each song: All good things, they never last. I'll give you everything, all my broken heartbeats. And I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you. You don’t do it on purpose but you make me shake. Woke up such a bad dream. You shoot me down but I get up. I thought you loved me more. Oh, We left it all unspoken.
Christina Perri Ft. Jason Mraz "Distance"
"The sun is filling up the room, And I can hear you dreaming. Do you feel the way I do, right now? I wish we would just give up, 'Cause the best part is falling. Call it anything but love. And I will make sure to keep my distance, Say I love you when you're not listening, How long, can we keep this up, up, up? Please don't stand so close to me I'm having trouble breathing. I'm afraid of what you'll see, right now. I'll give you everything I am, All my broken heartbeats. Until I know you'll understand. And I will make sure to keep my distance, Say I love you when you're not listening, How long, can we keep this up, up, up? And I keep waiting For you to take me And you keep waiting To save what we had So I'll make sure to keep my distance, Say I love you when you're not listening, How long, can we keep this up, up, up? Make sure to keep my distance, Say I love you when you're not listening, How long, 'til we call this love, love, love?"
A Great Big World ft. Christina Aguilera "Say Something"
'Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'll be the one, if you want me to
Anywhere, I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you
And I am feeling so small
It was over my head I know nothing at all
And I will stumble and fall
I'm still learning to love Just starting to crawl
Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
Anywhere, I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you
And I will swallow my pride
You're the one that I love
And I'm saying goodbye
Say something, I'm giving up on you
And I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
And anywhere, I would have followed you
Oh-oh-oh-oh say something, I'm giving up on you
Say something, I'm giving up on you
Say something"
Something Corporate "Hurricane"
"Shake down, you make me break, for goodness sake I think I’m on the edge of something new with you. Shout out, don’t drown the sound, I’ll drown you out, you’ll never scream so loud as I want to scream with you.
Standing there with your smile blinding your eyes from seeing my face as I’m dying to figure out a girl. But she drifts so far away, I’m on her coast, so maybe I should stay and map around your world.
So don’t say “These currents are still killing me” and you can’t explain but the wind went and pulled me into the hurricane, into the hurricane.
Stand up don’t make a sound, your ears might bleed. There are sweet fluorescent enemies that live inside of me. The world moves faster than I knew, not fast enough to not creep up on you and the space we put between. So pull me under your weather patterns, your cold fronts and the rain don’t matter, because a sun burns what I needed.
So don’t say “These currents are still killing me” and you can’t explain but the wind went and pulled you into the hurricane, into the hurricane.
You don’t do it on purpose but you make me shake now I count the hours ‘til you wake. With your baby's breath, breathe symphonies, come on, sweet catastrophe. Well, maybe this time I can follow through, I can feel complete, stop paying dues. Stop the rain from falling keep my ocean calm this time I know nothing's wrong.
So don’t say “These currents are still killing me” and you can’t explain but the wind went and pulled me in and no you don’t say “These currents are still killing me” and you can’t explain but the wind went and pulled me into the hurricane, into your hurricane, into your hurricane."
Count the Stars "All Good Things"
"This air is contagious, no one can save us, nothing this good could ever last, and tonight is a drug, that I won’t give up, this is my favorite addiction the summer comes to a close, and no one knows what we know, no one knows I can’t explain, what made me stay, I fall into the same mistakes, like all good things, they never last, the past is past I’d rather be drowning, than swimming away, that’s something that will never change, I swallow regret, and hope for the best, if this is all that i can do this is why I never try, to make it seem we shouldn’t leave, this is why I never try this air is contagious, no one can save us, but I wait I must confess, I’m not impressed, there’s nothing worse than losing you, I must confess, I’m not the same like all good things"
Christina Perri "I Don't Wanna Break"
"Woke up such a bad dream
I stayed, you were leaving
With my heart, you were stealing
I don't care, I'd let you take it
Showed up, like a good girl
I fell for your fable
But I'm no Cinderella
I don't care, I'd let you take it
Put us back together
You said, it's forever
But I know you're pretending
I don't care, I'd let you take it
All again
And I just wanna love you
Don't wanna lose me
Don't wanna lose you, whoa oh
If it gets harder
Then I don't wanna break all alone
I wanna break in your
I just wanna love you
Don't wanna lose me
Don't wanna lose you, whoa oh
If it gets harder
Then I don't wanna break all alone
I wanna break in your
Whoa oh oh, whoa oh oh
(Don't wanna break in your)
And if it gets harder
Then I don't wanna break all alone
I wanna break in your arms
Sometimes, when I'm sleeping
I still, feel you breathing
You stole, all my good dreams
I don't care, I'd let you take it
Come on, listen closely
To the sound, that our love made
If you go, I would follow
I don't care, I'd let you take it,
All again
I just wanna love you
Don't wanna lose me
Don't wanna lose you, whoa oh
If it gets harder
Then I don't wanna break all alone
I wanna break in your
And I just wanna love you
Don't wanna lose me
Don't wanna lose you, whoa oh
If it gets harder
Then I don't wanna break all alone
I wanna break in your
Whoa oh oh, whoa oh oh, whoa oh
And if it gets harder
Then I don't wanna break all alone
I wanna break in your
Whoa oh oh, whoa oh oh
(Don't wanna break in your)
Whoa oh oh (Don't wanna break in your arms)
Whoa oh oh (Don't wanna break in your)
Whoa oh oh (Don't wanna break in your arms)
Whoa oh oh (Don't wanna break in your arms)
Whoa oh oh (Don't wanna break in your arms)
Whoa oh oh, whoa oh
And I just wanna love you
Don't wanna lose me
Don't wanna lose you, whoa oh
If it gets harder
Then I don't wanna break all alone
I wanna break in your arms"
David Guetta - "Titanium"
"You shout it out
But I can't hear a word you say
I'm talking loud not saying much
I'm criticized, but all your bullets ricochet
You shoot me down, but I get up
I'm bulletproof nothing to lose
Fire away, fire away
Ricochet, you take your aim
Fire away, fire away
You shoot me down but I won't fall, I am titanium
You shoot me down but I won't fall I am titanium
Cut me down
But it's you who has further to fall
Ghost town, haunted love
Raise your voice, sticks and stones may break my bones
I'm talking loud not saying much
I'm bulletproof nothing to lose
Fire away, fire away Ricochet, you take your aim
Fire away, fire away
You shoot me down but I won't fall
I am Titanium
You shoot me down but I won't fall
I am titanium,
I am titanium,
I am titanium
Stone-hard, machine gun
Firing at the ones who run
Stone-hard, those bulletproof guns
You shoot me down but I won't fall,
I am titanium
You shoot me down but I won't fall,
I am titanium
You shoot me down but I won't fall,
I am titanium
You shoot me down but I won't fall,
I am titanium
I am titanium"
Gwen Stefani "Used To Love You"
"Yeah, boy
Thought this would happen
I let it sink in, you're gone
I don't know, know what I'm feeling
I must be dreaming, you're gone
Suitcase, band-aids
Pulling back out the driveway
You go, I'll stay
You can keep all the memories
I thought I was the best thing that ever happened to you
I thought you loved me the most
I don't know why I cry
But I think it's cause I remembered for the first time
Since I hated you
That I used to love you
I don't know why I cry
But I think it's cause I remembered for the first time
Since I hated you
That I used to love you
Oh, oh, oh, oh I used to love you Oh, oh, oh, oh I used to love you Are you gone? There were no boundaries What, you just pushed me too far I guess nobody taught you Nobody taught you how to love Suitcase, band-aids Pulling back out the driveway You go, I'll stay You can keep all the memories I thought I was the best thing that ever happened to you I thought you loved me the most I don't know why I cry But I think it's cause I remembered for the first time Since I hated you That I used to love you I don't know why I cry But I think it's cause I remembered for the first time Since I hated you That I used to love you Oh, oh, oh, oh I used to love you Oh, oh, oh, oh I used to love you You know I was the best thing that ever happened to you I thought you loved me more, oh You know I was the best thing that ever happened to you Now look at what you lost, oh I don't know why I cry But I think it's cause I remembered for the first time Since I hated you That I used to love you I don't know why I cry But I think it's cause I remembered for the first time Since I hated you That I used to love you Oh, oh, oh, oh I used to love you Oh, oh, oh, oh I used to love you I don't know why I cry I don't, I don't, I don't I don't know why I used to love you I don't, I don't, I don't I don't know why I cry I don't, I don't, I don't I don't know why I used to love you I don't, I don't, I don't"
A Great Big World "I Don't Wanna Love Somebody Else"
"Oh, I built a world around you
Oh, you had me in a dream,
I lived in every word you said
The stars had aligned
I thought that I found you
And I don't wanna love somebody else
Oh, we left it all unspoken
Oh, we buried it alive
And now it's screaming in my head
Oh, I shouldn't go on hoping
Oh, that you will change your mind
And one day we could start again
Well I don't care if loneliness kills me
I don't wanna love somebody else
Oh, I thought that I could change you
Oh, I thought that we would be the greatest story that I tell
I know that it's time to tell you it's over
But I don't wanna love somebody else"